Magic Rose

2008-11-09T18:51:00.000-08:00

This is my new PCO support group. Please to all of you who are aware of whats going on with me, keep me in your prayers. Emotionally andphysically I need them. And like I told my mom "Wherever two or more gather in my name I will be there." So my prayers are like an email and yours together are like a phone call. :-) haha

Anyways, all is well with work, school im still working on. update you soon in the future..

Soul Cyster

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM!

2008-11-01T18:17:00.001-07:00

Happy birthday to you! I love you so much and Im sorry I didnt get you a card so this is your card. You are so important to me and Im glad that life has been so good that I am so close to you. You are irreplaceable and I dont know what I would have ever done without you! Happy birthday Mom.. I love you... xoxoxoxoox

SL

Forgiven

2008-10-19T19:13:00.000-07:00

For all the times I’ve failed you Lord, forgive me, for all the ways I’ve fallen short, Lord forgive me now, God I’m so in need of grace… I fall upon my face, forgive me….
You see the tears fall down my face, forgive me, take my fear Lord take my shame. Lord forgive me now, purify me make me new like holy you can do… forgive me now

Lord we come to honor you, we are forgiven. We bring a love and thanks to you, we are forgiven now… God we praise you for your grace… forgiven… God we praise you for your grace before you we are raised, forgiven. Forgiven

NEW JOB!

2008-10-10T16:44:00.000-07:00

So folks! just wanted to let you know that i am now a brand new employee of Memorial Hospital!!!!!!! Passes my physicals and tests, and i have orientation on monday and start real work on wednesday!! so excited!!!!

Whats even funnier is that ive been waiting for that "you got the job!" phone call for a while now and once i did get it, ive gotten four more from other places. how funny is that.

anyways i just wanted to let you know whats going on in my life so there it is!!!

Much love from here!

SL

A Post for Mama

2008-09-23T14:29:00.000-07:00

Hello Folks!

Long time no write. Well I just thought maybe I would update this bad boy since I'm online anyways.

So recent visits to the ER have left me very drained and feeling hormonal. I can't wait until I'm a nurse and I can find out exaclty why it takes so damn long in there.

So I started Weight Watchers today, for real for real. I think that being accountable to someone will help me get over this plateu that I've been at for so long. My first goal to hit is 23lbs. Then I get a gold star! Haha I'm not kidding either!

Thanks so much to my mom because she stayed with me and held my hand through those excruciating (sp) hours at the ER and because she's the one who is getting me through weight watchers. Thanks so much. Jesus is working through you as my angel on earth. :-) That's what I will call you, my angel with no wings. hahahahaha

Anyways, thats about all, any questions or maybe suggestions on how to get through rough days, let me know.

Thanks!

God Bless!

9-11 A Young Girls Story

2008-09-09T21:53:00.000-07:00

Her hair was up in a ponytail, Her favorite dress tied with a bow. Today was Daddy's Day at school, and she couldn't wait to go. But her mommy tried to tell her, that she probably should stay home. Why the kids might not understand, if she went to school alone. But she was not afraid; She knew just what to say. What to tell her classmates of why he wasn't there today. But still her mother worried, for her to face this day alone. And that was why once again, She tried to keep her daughter home. But the little girl went to school, Eager to tell them all. About a dad she never sees, a dad who never calls. There were daddies along the wall in back, for everyone to meet. Children squirming impatiently, Anxious in their seats. One by one the teacher called, a student from the class. To introduce their daddy, as seconds slowly passed. At last the teacher called her name, every child turned to stare. Each of them was searching, for a man who wasn't there. 'Where's her daddy at?' She heard a boy call out. 'She probably doesn't have one,' Another student dared to shout. And from somewhere near the back, She heard a daddy say, 'Looks like another deadbeat dad, too busy to waste his day. 'The words did not offend her, as she smiled up at her Mom. And looked back at her teacher, who told her to go on. And with hands behind her back, slowly she began to speak. And out from the mouth of a child, came words incredibly unique. 'My Daddy couldn't be here, because he lives so far away. But I know he wishes he could be, since this is such a special day. And though you cannot meet him, I wanted you to know. All about my daddy, and how much he loves me so. He loved to tell me stories, He taught me to ride my bike. He surprised me with pink roses, and taught me to fly a kite. We used to share fudge sundaes, and ice cream in a cone. And though you cannot see him, I'm not standing here alone. 'Cause my daddy's always with me, Even though we are apart I know because he told me, He'll forever be in my heart' With that, her little hand reached up, and lay across her chest. Feeling her own heartbeat, beneath her favorite dress. And from somewhere in the crowd of dads, Her mother stood in tears. Proudly watching her daughter, who was wise beyond her years. For she stood up for the love of a man not in her life. Doing what was best for her, Doing what was right. And when she dropped her hand back down, staring straight into the crowd. She finished with a voice so soft, but its message clear and loud. 'I love my daddy very much, He's my shining star. And if he could, he'd be here, but heaven’s just too far. You see he was a fireman and died just this past year when airplanes hit the towers and taught Americans to fear. But sometimes when I close my eyes, it's like he never went away.' And then she closed her eyes, and saw him there that day. And to her mother's amazement, She witnessed with surprise. A room full of daddies and children, all starting to close their eyes. Who knows what they saw before them, who knows what they felt inside. Perhaps for merely a second, they saw him at her side. 'I know you're with me Daddy,' To the silence she called out. And what happened next made believers, of those once filled with doubt. Not one in that room could explain it, for each of their eyes had been closed. But there on the desk beside her, was a fragrant long-stemmed pink rose. And a child was blessed, if only for a moment, by the love of her shining bright star. And given the gift of believing, that heaven is never too far.

When Life Get's Hard

2008-09-07T22:41:00.000-07:00

So here I am sitting at my computer at 12:42am, thinking about my life. What I've done, what I have yet to do. It dawned on me today that I am going to be 23 years old in less than two months. Not THAT old but old enough to realize that there are still so many things that I have yet to accomplish, and even though I am well on my way I'm still not there yet. I'm not graduated with a good job, not married, no kids, still living in the ghetto of all ghettos. When will I start to be a real grown up and not just be an adult living a highschoolers life.

Not that I want to make this a sob-fest because there are so many great things that I have already accomplished in my life. I have been working at the same damn job, (good pay or not) for almost six years now. I have been accepted into a very rigorous Nursing Program, and even though I have struggled to make it on my own, I have done it none the less. I have met a wonderful man who makes up in what I lack ( which isn't much because I'm fabulous) (JUST PLAYING) and I have succeeded in raising two beautiful cats. Hahaha. So I guess in retrospect my life is not so bad, and I AM on the right path. I guess it just takes a little of a harder look to realize that what I think I am missing out on, I'm really not.

One day I'll get there, it's just a little longer journey than I had expected.

Also as a side note: Please everyone cross their fingers for me that I am able to attain that job at Memorial Hospital I applied for. It would really just take the wieght of half the world off my shoulders.

Thanks again to all you out there who love and support me. You are the foundation on which my life is built.

Love you all & God Bless

Elections

2008-09-02T20:22:00.001-07:00

So I heard a funny word today and that I would share it with you bloggers out there.

The world has created a new word......... electile dysfunction- inability to be aroused by any presidential candidates offered this 2008 election. I just thought it was funny...

Onto a new subject, I just wanted to write a side note to explain how wonderful this past labor day weekend was. I am so glad that I live so close to my family that I was able to dive over two days and be with them. Had dinner, made some yummy dessert, played some games. Good quality times. I came home and realized how nice it was to be in a cool house with lots of food and people. It was just wonderful and I thank God that I am still able to do that. And high five on the fact that I haven't had ONE doctors appointment at all this month! whoooohooo!!!

School started so I have to study some more! If anyone out there has some tips on how to study for the NCLEX please message me and let me know your secrets!!!!

Goodnight and God Bless.

First Day of Class!

2008-08-24T19:03:00.000-07:00

So tomorrow is my first day of class and I'm excited and totally scared. Good news is that I'm only taking one class until Setpember then I am taking two. But anyways I know that I haven't written on here for a while so I just wanted to update you. Plus I joined a, I'm not really sure what to call it except for a nursing sorority. Haha. Anyways first meeting is tomorrow so we will see how everything goes! Hopefully good. Much love.

God Bless,

Sarah

Beach Time - First Day

2008-08-10T15:19:00.001-07:00

So hey guys - I just wanted to write a quick hello from Florida! Here for one of my best friend's weddings! Anyways, we spent all afternoon walking around Downtown Disney and riding on Roy and Paola's rented Harley! WOOOOHHOOO!!! It was sooo much fun! Totally terrifying! But WAYYYYY fun! Anyways - I just wanted to write a quick update because Mom I know you read this so. Love you!

BYE

Did You Know?

2008-08-04T15:56:00.000-07:00

In PCOS characteristically there is an excess of androgens (male-like hormones) and lack of regular ovulation (release of an egg from the ovary). It is sometimes also referred to as “hyperandrogen anovulation syndrome” or “Stein Leventhal Syndrome”. Symptoms may present in many different ways - some women have uncomfortable and sometimes, quite distressing symptoms, whilst others have quite mild symptoms. Not everyone with PCOS will have all the symptoms and very few women will have the same set of symptoms. Symptoms may be present from puberty but might also begin later in life.
Symptoms can include:
Periods that are irregular, infrequent or heavy
Excess facial or body hair
Acne on both the face and the body
Hair loss
Difficulty in becoming pregnant
Other symptoms can include:
Depression, low self esteem, mood changes, anxiety
Sleep apnoea
Not all women with PCOS will have fertility problems. High levels of androgens (male hormones) and high insulin levels can affect the menstrual cycle and prevent ovulation (the release of a mature egg from the ovary). Ovulation can stop completely or it can occur irregularly. This can make it more difficult for women with PCOS to conceive naturally, and some women may also have a greater risk of miscarriage. However, this does not mean that all women with PCOS are infertile. Many women with PCOS have children naturally without any extra medical infertility treatment. Other women with PCOS can fall pregnant and have children with medical assistance. As being overweight exacerbates infertility in PCOS, one of the most important approaches to improve fertility is to prevent weight gain, exercise regularly and lose weight if overweight.

Psychological effectsinclude:
Self-esteem and a sense of one's body image may be affected by the symptoms of excess hair, acne, hair loss, obesity and fertility problems. Other psychological reactions may occur relating to issues of femaleness, sexuality and femininity and can contribute to mood changes and social isolation and can lead to depression.

Women with PCOS, particularly when they are overweight or insulin resistant, can be at an increased risk of developing sleep-disordered breathing or sleep apnoea. Sleep apnoea occurs when the upper airway is obstructed during sleep - this can be due to pressure from excessive fatty tissue in the neck partially blocking the airway. This can lead to sleep loss, fatigue, tiredness and reduced quality of daily life.

Just some information I found interesting....

Finding People Llike Me

2008-08-04T14:46:00.000-07:00

Isn't it wonderful when you think you're the only one in the world with so many problems happening at once, to all of a sudden find a friend with the same exact problems.. Ok maybe not exact but pretty darn close..

Today I was training a new woman at work, and in our discussions about computer programs, and special discounts, we happened in on the conversation about medical problems. I'm so happy that I'm not the only one in this great big universe who has seen stupid doctors had three or four medical disasters going on at once!

Anyways- we started talking about how I have been diagnosed with PCOS (polycystic ovarian syndrom) and how I was happy with my new doctor and she told me that her daughter has the SAME problem. Not just with our symptoms but with what the doctors are doing about it. Now I guess its kind of comforting to know that two different doctors are doing about the same thing for us, makes it seem like maybe they do know what they are talking about. (Even if it doesn't work) We talked about what medications her doctor had put her on, what has helped and what hasn't. It's amazing how common things like this are! Not only that but her daughter has gained a ton of weight since the start of all her symptoms and has lately been getting constant migraines. That's exactly what happened to me, although I can't say I have constant migraine but they are definitley presenting themselves more frequently than they used to.

I just thought I would share this little tid bit so maybe if there are more of you out there like me, we can share stories and advice with each other. Please feel free to leave any comments.

Paradise

2008-08-03T15:09:00.000-07:00

♥ PARADISE ♥

So it's not going to be easy, it's going to be really hard, and we're going to have to work at this everyday, but I want to do that, becuase I want you, everyday for the rest of my life...

What Is Music???"It's God's little reminder there's something else besides us in the universe... A harmonic connection between all living beings everwhere, even the stars...."

Totally Excited!

2008-08-02T22:23:00.000-07:00

So I know that I've already put up another post today but since this is all new to me and I'm adding things one at a time, I just wanted to tell everyone that I'm so excited! I can add music and books that I like, what a cool little internet marvel... even as an adult I can say that Myspace is addicting but I think I've found my new addiction.. Blogspot! It's nice to get my thoughts out in the open and when I get typing I just don't want to stop, I could go on and on about all kinds of things. I've also added a blog for recipes. I know mother, I'm a copy cat but hey I can say when a good idea is a good idea....

Much love

God Bless

First Time Ever!

2008-08-02T19:01:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone- this is my very first blog ever. Let me just take some time to introduce myself. My name is Sarah, I am a 22 year old currently getting ready to dive into the biggest adventure of my life (other than life itself) ... Nursing School.

My goal this semester is just to get through it. I'm already enrolled and have my books thanks to the incredible generosity of my parents. Where would I be withouth them?

I started this blog because last night I had a dream, I dreamt that there was a garden and in this garden was a rose bush. The roses were just starting to bud, but throughout the garden were tons of weeds overpowering the rose bush so that the buds couldn't open and become the beautiful roses they were meant to be.

Now my life the last few months has been wonderful but none the less full of stress. Stress about money, school, love, work, success. Basically just life. Stress of life, and as a young adult struggling to find a place in life I have let these stressors become a huge factor of who I am. I have been trying to find ways to overcome each obstacle as best I can.

Now when I awoke after having this dream I realized that I could use it as a sign, even though I don't usually believe in signs. I interpreted the dream like this: The roses were my life and the weeds the stress surrounding me, and like the buds that were trying to bloom, I know where my life is going. Now what I must do is find a way to cut through the weeds and let the light hit me so I can bloom into the success woman I know I was meant to be.

With that in mind I've started this blog. I know that it has been a blessing to my mother so as I am my mothers daughter, I believe that having this outlet will be good for me. So welcome to my life.

I would love feedback to others out there like me with a strong faith in God, who may have ideas on how to handle life.

So heres to you... my first blog..

God Bless.