This is my new PCO support group. Please to all of you who are aware of whats going on with me, keep me in your prayers. Emotionally andphysically I need them. And like I told my mom "Wherever two or more gather in my name I will be there." So my prayers are like an email and yours together are like a phone call. :-) haha

Anyways, all is well with work, school im still working on. update you soon in the future..

SL

Soul Cyster

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM!

Happy birthday to you! I love you so much and Im sorry I didnt get you a card so this is your card. You are so important to me and Im glad that life has been so good that I am so close to you. You are irreplaceable and I dont know what I would have ever done without you! Happy birthday Mom.. I love you... xoxoxoxoox

SL

Forgiven

For all the times I’ve failed you Lord, forgive me, for all the ways I’ve fallen short, Lord forgive me now, God I’m so in need of grace… I fall upon my face, forgive me….
You see the tears fall down my face, forgive me, take my fear Lord take my shame. Lord forgive me now, purify me make me new like holy you can do… forgive me now


Lord we come to honor you, we are forgiven. We bring a love and thanks to you, we are forgiven now… God we praise you for your grace… forgiven… God we praise you for your grace before you we are raised, forgiven. Forgiven

NEW JOB!

So folks! just wanted to let you know that i am now a brand new employee of Memorial Hospital!!!!!!! Passes my physicals and tests, and i have orientation on monday and start real work on wednesday!! so excited!!!!

Whats even funnier is that ive been waiting for that "you got the job!" phone call for a while now and once i did get it, ive gotten four more from other places. how funny is that.

anyways i just wanted to let you know whats going on in my life so there it is!!!

Much love from here!

SL

A Post for Mama

Hello Folks!

Long time no write. Well I just thought maybe I would update this bad boy since I'm online anyways.

So recent visits to the ER have left me very drained and feeling hormonal. I can't wait until I'm a nurse and I can find out exaclty why it takes so damn long in there.

So I started Weight Watchers today, for real for real. I think that being accountable to someone will help me get over this plateu that I've been at for so long. My first goal to hit is 23lbs. Then I get a gold star! Haha I'm not kidding either!

Thanks so much to my mom because she stayed with me and held my hand through those excruciating (sp) hours at the ER and because she's the one who is getting me through weight watchers. Thanks so much. Jesus is working through you as my angel on earth. :-) That's what I will call you, my angel with no wings. hahahahaha

Anyways, thats about all, any questions or maybe suggestions on how to get through rough days, let me know.

Thanks!

God Bless!

9-11 A Young Girls Story

Her hair was up in a ponytail, Her favorite dress tied with a bow. Today was Daddy's Day at school, and she couldn't wait to go. But her mommy tried to tell her, that she probably should stay home. Why the kids might not understand, if she went to school alone. But she was not afraid; She knew just what to say. What to tell her classmates of why he wasn't there today. But still her mother worried, for her to face this day alone. And that was why once again, She tried to keep her daughter home. But the little girl went to school, Eager to tell them all. About a dad she never sees, a dad who never calls. There were daddies along the wall in back, for everyone to meet. Children squirming impatiently, Anxious in their seats. One by one the teacher called, a student from the class. To introduce their daddy, as seconds slowly passed. At last the teacher called her name, every child turned to stare. Each of them was searching, for a man who wasn't there. 'Where's her daddy at?' She heard a boy call out. 'She probably doesn't have one,' Another student dared to shout. And from somewhere near the back, She heard a daddy say, 'Looks like another deadbeat dad, too busy to waste his day. 'The words did not offend her, as she smiled up at her Mom. And looked back at her teacher, who told her to go on. And with hands behind her back, slowly she began to speak. And out from the mouth of a child, came words incredibly unique. 'My Daddy couldn't be here, because he lives so far away. But I know he wishes he could be, since this is such a special day. And though you cannot meet him, I wanted you to know. All about my daddy, and how much he loves me so. He loved to tell me stories, He taught me to ride my bike. He surprised me with pink roses, and taught me to fly a kite. We used to share fudge sundaes, and ice cream in a cone. And though you cannot see him, I'm not standing here alone. 'Cause my daddy's always with me, Even though we are apart I know because he told me, He'll forever be in my heart' With that, her little hand reached up, and lay across her chest. Feeling her own heartbeat, beneath her favorite dress. And from somewhere in the crowd of dads, Her mother stood in tears. Proudly watching her daughter, who was wise beyond her years. For she stood up for the love of a man not in her life. Doing what was best for her, Doing what was right. And when she dropped her hand back down, staring straight into the crowd. She finished with a voice so soft, but its message clear and loud. 'I love my daddy very much, He's my shining star. And if he could, he'd be here, but heaven’s just too far. You see he was a fireman and died just this past year when airplanes hit the towers and taught Americans to fear. But sometimes when I close my eyes, it's like he never went away.' And then she closed her eyes, and saw him there that day. And to her mother's amazement, She witnessed with surprise. A room full of daddies and children, all starting to close their eyes. Who knows what they saw before them, who knows what they felt inside. Perhaps for merely a second, they saw him at her side. 'I know you're with me Daddy,' To the silence she called out. And what happened next made believers, of those once filled with doubt. Not one in that room could explain it, for each of their eyes had been closed. But there on the desk beside her, was a fragrant long-stemmed pink rose. And a child was blessed, if only for a moment, by the love of her shining bright star. And given the gift of believing, that heaven is never too far.

When Life Get's Hard

So here I am sitting at my computer at 12:42am, thinking about my life. What I've done, what I have yet to do. It dawned on me today that I am going to be 23 years old in less than two months. Not THAT old but old enough to realize that there are still so many things that I have yet to accomplish, and even though I am well on my way I'm still not there yet. I'm not graduated with a good job, not married, no kids, still living in the ghetto of all ghettos. When will I start to be a real grown up and not just be an adult living a highschoolers life.

Not that I want to make this a sob-fest because there are so many great things that I have already accomplished in my life. I have been working at the same damn job, (good pay or not) for almost six years now. I have been accepted into a very rigorous Nursing Program, and even though I have struggled to make it on my own, I have done it none the less. I have met a wonderful man who makes up in what I lack ( which isn't much because I'm fabulous) (JUST PLAYING) and I have succeeded in raising two beautiful cats. Hahaha. So I guess in retrospect my life is not so bad, and I AM on the right path. I guess it just takes a little of a harder look to realize that what I think I am missing out on, I'm really not.

One day I'll get there, it's just a little longer journey than I had expected.

Also as a side note: Please everyone cross their fingers for me that I am able to attain that job at Memorial Hospital I applied for. It would really just take the wieght of half the world off my shoulders.

Thanks again to all you out there who love and support me. You are the foundation on which my life is built.

Love you all & God Bless